Thursday, January 31, 2013

the endless wait

I guess its a waiting period for me in all fronts. There are just so many things lined up...and just not happening or time just not passing by!

The sabbatical decision has been one of the best i have taken till now. After 9 years of working straight out of college , it is a good break indeed. I am getting to do things i have been not finding time. More importantly i am getting time to see Sid grow and enjoy my second pregnancy without the official "jhanjhats". The sweet nothings had made it beautiful. But among all these what i have discovered is the freedom and independence my work life had given me. I appreciate those 9 years better now. Cant wait to get back to work ; re-energised.

Last time i blogged about the new member in the family i guess after i crossed my 4th, and there was a lot reading and research happening for the baby. Second time around I feel more comfortable and less worried about a lot of changes. The only anxiety that is there is of how I would deal with double the naughtiness and trouble at home :) . Another 5 months to go before i get to see one more set of tiny toes. Cant wait to get the first glimpse!

In a week i will get to know what baby its gonna be. Its as exciting a wait that can be. I pray for a healthy child - boy or girl. Would be an added bonus if it were a girl ; given my soft corner for the X chromosome. And if otherwise, i would be prepared in these 5 months to handle 3 men at home. AAHHHHHH!

One more week to go before my sister, bro in law and darling niece arrive for vacation. Its gonna be an awesome chinese new year for us i hope. :) The planning and preps are in place. Now its just the wait.

Reminded of an old melody...hum intezaar karenge...hum intezaar karenge....

Thursday, January 3, 2013

tamaso ma jyothir gamaya...

sid just started school. may the life be his best teacher, may we (raj n i) be his best guides, may his teachers show him the right path...to the light.

when all that philosophy ends, its a trauma of its own. More than Sid getting used to school and learning to be on his own with teachers and new friends, it is on me to get used to being without him! Since the dengue episode and shifting to singapore he has been my world. My full time company and my full time engagement.
Today , i have left him at school for the first day and now that i am home, i just cant get him out of my mind. Though i am here, i am not. He is most definitely crying and throwing a tantrum out there. I find myself consoling me that it is only for his own good and that he will come out of this and start liking it. So will I.
Come on the big clock on the wall...please strike 12!