Pajama troubles...

As I slowly move towards my third trimester when every girl gets nervous about labor pain and delivery my fear goes into a different league totally. Of course I do wonder how I am going to “flush” my baby out, but what worries me more is when my pajama will leave me totally publicly embarrassed! As my tummy grows bigger n bigger, I look like I have swallowed a big basket ball. And as a result it leaves me confused whether to tie my pajama up around the diaphragm or at the waist or tie it up like a low waist jeans. None of these three options seem comfortable. If I tie it up, I struggle for my breath and feel totally uncomfortable. I tie it around my bloated waist or around the hip, it slips and falls below my hip as soon as I start walking! Talk about silky smooth skin! DUH…Leaves me either pulling it up or holding until I can pull it up like some 2 year old waiting to go to the loo! Half my visits to restroom is to prevent a wardrobe malfunction. All this reminds me of an particular pot bellied instructor we had during the induction program at Infy who kept pulling his pants up every 10 minutes.

Ladies with prior experience , your suggestions are very very welcome.

onam 2010

oh yes... forgot to mention , this time it was a bangalorean onam for me since im in the kangaroo mode. managed three days of pookalam, a grand sadya and my first ever ada pradhaman ( errr...something similar)!!!

am a kangaroo!

New phase of life is just round the corner i guess...Though mentally i'm still miles and miles away from feeling motherhood, physically i have bloated up into a big inflated balloon and am supposedly carrying a tiny life inside me that pops up on the scan monitor every time i go for a check up! :D
Luckily for me, my baby has not given me any hassles of morning sickness or tiredness till now. The only "trouble" is the extra time i devote to kumbhakarna seva ; but who has complaints about it! :D

One good relief is the freedom from the googly question " no good news?" by every uncle and aunty i meet at weddings and social gatherings :) . Interestingly its only directed to me ..always! It is strange that first people are concerned about your 10th score, then about 12th marks , and then the entrance ranks, then about which college we join, then campus selection, then job, then about why we are still unmarried, and then once u think marriage solves it all...the next question pops up. Funny....

So while i wait for another five months nearly to see the lil one , i have noticed two interesting observations. All these uncles and aunties want it to be a BOY! Secondly, a FAIR boy at that. For the first one there are umpteen prayers and blessings, for the second there is always milk with saffron!

It seems that at 2010 there are still so many educated souls roaming around thinking that the Y chromosome is the "heir" to the family tree ("vamsham"). I feed them back with my age old line... i am still my dad's daughter and will remain so forever.

As for me, i think a healthy baby would be just fine...it would be an added bonus if its XX! a daddy princess like me :) Raj i guess is not on any sides as yet though i have a feeling we both share a like for baby girls. Anyways... until Dec 20 its gonna be a sweet pleasant wait.

koi pyaar kare toh tumse kare,
tum jaise ho waise kare,
koi tumhe badal kar pyaar kare,
toh woh pyaar nahi, sauda kare
aur sahiba, pyaar mein sauda nahi hota.....

These are the only lines i remember from the forgettable but lonnggg crap movie "mohabbatein"! i think its more than just a dialogue. If its love then there cannot be a bargain there, If its love then there cannot be dictatorship, if its love then there cannot be dishonesty. Freedom to be oneself , trust and honesty is the base of love and these lines just say that. i read a quote somewhere on similar lines
" Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be,because sooner or later,if you're posing,you'll forget the pose and then where are you ?' - Fanny Brice

Am i in love? :)

the good, the bad and the seasons!

Watched two movies today, and i guess thats riding my mind into writing this crap right now. First was maniratnam's latest flick -Raavan (Tamil). And the second was shyama Prasads -Ritu (Malayalam). While the first one deals with the good and the bad and different views of the the subjects the other one shows how relations and people change with times ...seasons. I felt both are essentially showing us about people in our lives. how we see them, how they see us.

My take on raavan and ritu are 4/5, cause i relate to the stories ...the characters.
Sometimes life tells you that there a good in every bad- its only the way you see it has to change. Also the other way round. We humans are ruled by ego and desire which makes them do certain things at some stupid moments of time and then we run around the circumstances that it creates trying to master the plan and succeed in our own ways. crazy!
When my friend asked me to watch this movie Ritu, i wondered why...but now i know. :) I find it hard to pen what i feel now sitting back and thinking how true it is that with changing times...like seasons ...people change and so do relations , friendship. everything! :)
I guess i am in my wierdest best tonight after a long time. winding up to clear my thoughts again...to find the words...the wisdom.
signing off...

@ loss of access to internet world! :(

infy has cut net access to a lot of sites. this being one, i am left so bored and depressed at work a lot of times. vishrama velakal anandakaramaakan pandu lalettan polum kodi pidichittundu!! njanum edukkano oru kodi ?

pensive....

One's life is not made by the number of breaths you take, but the number of moments that take your breath away. :) i strongly believe so. The little moments like tiny drops add up to an ocean of happiness in ones life. there are so many such cherished moments....
And then there are those moments for which you wait all your life and finally it turns out some other way. You are standing there staring at the reality , helpless and speechless ; thats when life teaches you are just a player and nothing more in this game. Its a very humbling experience for one but also a saddening one...
There were a million times i would have imagined it, replayed it and corrected even the minute detail to perfection .... and then in a fraction of a second someone snatches that special moment and shatters the magic. One second you are the king of the world and the next you crash land in the mess around you. :)
At moments like this...i am reminded of one of my favourite poem from my favourite poet ...super senior bachchan. copying the same below....

Jeevan mein ek sitara tha
Maana woh behad pyara tha
Woh doob gaya to doob gaya
Ambar ke aanan ko dekho
Kitne iske tare toote
Kitne iske pyare choote
Par bolo toote taron par
Kab ambar shok manata hai
Jo beet gayi so baat gayi ....

Jeewan mein tha who ek kusum
The us pe nitya nyochawar tum
Wo sookh gaya to sookh gaya
Madhuwan ki chaati ko dekho
Sookhi kitni iski kaliyan
Jo murjhai phir kahan khili
Par bolo sookhe phoolon pe
Kab madhuvan shok manata hai ?
Jo beet gayi so baat gayi...

Jeewan mein madhu ka pyala tha
Tumne tan man de daala tha
Woh toot gaya to toot gaya
Madiralay ka aangan dekho
Kitne pyaale hil jaate hain
Gir mitti mein mil jate hain
Jo girte hain kab uthte hain
Par bolo toote pyalon mein kab madiralay pachtata hai
Jo beet gayi so baat gayi....

Mridu mitti ke hain bane huye
Madhu ghat phoota hi kartein hain
Laghu jeewan leke aaye hain
Pyale toota hi karte hain
Phir bhi madiralay ke andar
Madhu ke ghat madhu ke pyale hain
Jo madakta ke mare hain
Wo madhu loota hi karte hain
Wo kachcha peene wala hai
Jiski mamta ghat pyalon par
Jo sachche madhu se jala hua
Kab rota hai chillata hai?
Jo beet gayi so baat gayi ......

--HARIVANSH RAI BACHCHAN