being mommy

Everyone's- friends who are already mommies, to friends who are soon gonna be mommies, cousins, relatives - asking me the one big question! How is motherhood? To be honest and frank, i dont feel that i have changed any bit. Four years back when i got married, everyone was asking me how i am coping with married life! I dint feel "married"...cause it dint change who or what i am then. Siddharth - my 5 month old son has not changed me a bit either. FRIENDS...i am still as crazy and pathetic as i was - BEWARE ! he he

Yes, the one only minor changes i can see is that i am not going to work...but am working harder than ever before! :) Sometimes its tiring , exhausting etc etc...but mostly is a good feeling. I really cannot imagine any moment i had without him. His ever infectious toothless grin is all that takes to de-stress! The best thing i love about all this is to wake up in the morning and find him smiling back at you (PS: if u have noticed - my lil son too wakes up before i do ...see i told u nothing changed! ). The smile makes my day! :)

kabhi khushi...kabhi gam.

homecoming is always a sweet pain. when i left bangalore 5 months ago for my delivery i went with a heavy heart and sobbing in the train with my parents. The 5 months flew by like a big festive season with lot of time with cousins and relatives. Here i am back at bangalore. glad to be back home with rajiv...but my parents just left and i find myself sobbing again..missing them. yes...homecoming is a sweet pain either ways!

delightful

more than 35 lakh women, one city lights up with devotion! its atukal ponkala once again :) :)

postpartum!

when i was carrying i was amused by the fact that my ever growing tummy was the first thing that caught everyones eye! it was discussed about and people were so happy to see it grow! Now that the baby is out it, its irritating that it still remains the showstopper! everyone n just everyone has to tell me that much of the big big tummy stll remains. grrrr

close to go live!

20 days to go live - for the baby! :D should i say im excited or that im nervous ? can't make out. But two people more nervous and scared than i am -are my parents!! :D

homecoming!

Well i must say its kind of weird feeling coming back home for a long stay after so many years. I think its my first after joining infy and thats like straight after college...way back in 2002. So that gives it a eight year gap. Of all things il miss it will be the cool bangalore weather that il miss the most. sweaty and sultry kerala capital is sure gonna be irritating for the first two weeks. :) Oh yes...I might fit into the "Typical Marunadan Mallu" group.
What i love about this stay is that i get to spend quality time with my two darlings- achu and bhadra ( my nephew and niece resp). Its entertainment full time...so much that im not sulking about missing Rocky and Mayurs HOMP on NDTV goodtimes! :D Pathetic comparison i must admit.
Next week , hope to catch up with some old friends at the DC here while at work. So thats another perk. Ex roomies being here for company im sure we are gonna have a party!

Coming to taste buds...The good thing about my life is that i get to taste the best of two states :). Cross border relations gives me this exclusive previlege of choosing between moms cuisine vs mamiyaar cuisine ! Even if i choose to be my non diplomatic best, id say they both have their signature dishes. As much as i miss the avial and erisseri while im there, I do miss the super tangy vattalkuzhambu and ammas special rasam while im here.

There's not much thats changed about the house or the city. Dad and mom still have the same old schedules. The street lamp at the corner of the lane is defective as usual, keeping the entrance dark. Neighbours are the same, warm and lovable. There are couple of new entries in the old locality whom im getting introduced to. The same old computer with a new monitor and a case , some new curtains which came along with bhagya's wedding...nothing much has changed at all - except the milkman michael uncle's timings. Now milk is delivered at 10pm at night here! ha ha.

While all this is in place and ok, the heart craves for one thing thats perfectly amiss in this whole setup. Wish my man was here :)

Living on the edge

Moody, troubled and irritated would be the best words to be describe the week that flew by.

The easiest excuse is to blame it on the progesterone levels shooting up, but its not been a good week in general. Was a tough test of patience and tolerance. It is a rather comforting thought that i will be soon heading for peaceful yet lively life back in gods own country. Away from the dust, the noise, the nasty work, payment systems.... Phew. They say ladies carrying should remain calm and be happy and cheerful. If that turns out true ...god help me deliver a normal healthy one :)

The biggest relief of all things would be i guess that i have 24 hours of the day all for myself. There wont be a target of 9.15 clock. Some times its hard to think what i will do with all those extra hours too.

The freedom, the beaches, the rains, thattukada, achuttan, surya festival, some spicy tasty food...somethings that i'm really looking forward to....coming to think of which , im heading home for a long stay for the first time after i joined infy...i.e after 2002! after good old 8 years! wooww.

time to sign off...the weird mood bites me again....
the two of us need rest. :)